"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine..."
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
I arose early feeling totally refreshed and in the darkness was able to reconnect with the source. Ahhhhhhh, now I remember. I often find the early morning a fertile time to slip between the cracks of all the consumption I have created and gently drift upon the sea of nothingness. Do you too have such a time of reverend reflection and renewal? Like any moment of meditation the challenge for the helmsman is to keep the rudder true as puffs of wind come up within the mind teasing us to drift off course.
There is always so much going on as we busy ourselves with the details of the day seldom pausing for a refreshing dip into the velvety waters of the infinite. But this is where the precious nugget lies awaiting our discovery...or perhaps instead, this is where our essence lies in patient bliss welcoming our awakening.
As the tick tock time progressed I found myself staring out the window just as the solar orb began to rise and what was then beheld took hold and led me on. There was a “candy-floss” pink display upon the canvas of the heavens which I could not resist. I slipped on my shoes and out the door I went, drawn closer and closer to the divinely inspired message in the sky. Walking meditations are my favourite so on I strode in the early morning light with the birds just beginning to sing. There was a rabbit in the lane whose twitching nose signalled the path I was to take and like Alice in Wonderland I tumbled further into the magic. Everything, me included, was vibrating with delight. There was a deep cleansing going on, a rebirthing of sorts as the sound of my own heart was all that I could hear.
And then in an instant I was there, there as the solitary witness of a sunrise on the beach that brought me to my knees in fulfilling dismay.
I know that you were there too, in fact you were all there as you have always been. I could even smell your delicate presence as a lover would his love. I was caressed by your beauty and touched in that holiest of places by the sweetness of your whispering breath. The true meaning of “resurrection” became apparent in a flash.
When is the right time to face the lions in your den? How many times must you be burned before you pull your hand away from the fire? And how many cloaks have you heaped upon your shoulders until your spirit cannot breathe? I ask these questions of you as I look into my mirror and I am reaching out to you now in tenderness and unconditionally as a mother would her child. I am filled with your brilliance and I want nothing less for you. I am the messenger of your love and I know no other course.
When all the motion of the mind is steadied then the truth will be revealed and like an early morning sunrise we will be bathed within its glory.
And out of that will emerge the knowing that transcends all previous thought and the benediction will absorb you and return you safely to your heart.
I know you’ve heard it all before and uttered it yourself but ne’er can oft’ be criticized until we disappear.
It is so easy to be led astray, we allow it all the time and it is so simple to return to the path yet we disobey all the signs. We have created everything we see and feel and still our vision remains blurred. If I cannot love myself as much as I love you then I will never be at peace and can never return home.
You are the very reason I am here to share these words for without your audience I do not exist. You are the rapture that embraces me whenever you arrive and for these privileges I can show no deeper gratitude than to extend my heart through my hand right now and offer you my love.
Set aside that which fills your mind with confusion or distraction and welcome in the light which illuminates your path. Hold the resolve to never drop the gauntlet and forever be your best. Extend yourself beyond your reach to those who need your strength and when the boatman from the underworld calls your name shout back “The angels have me now!”. Find the touchstone that will bring you back to the harmony you deserve and if a struggle ever surfaces know I too am by your side.
We are all in this together, of this you can be sure, and in similar fashion we will make a difference one sunrise at a time.
Love is holding me now,
Dr. John